2012 is definitely not my year.
I normally think of myself as a cheery, happy person and I like this personality to show in my blog posts. But at the same time, I am a born worrier who is always doused in anxiety, and this paired with the piles of crap that have been thrown my way since the very beginning of this year has sent me in to turmoil. This is why I have been MIA on here and Twitter a lot recently.
Blogging is usually my escape from this anxiety. Typing up posts and reading other people's blogs often feels very therapeutic to me and keeps my mind off other things. Everybody I have come across in this community is absolutely lovely, I have had some laughs with some of you on Twitter and all the comments I get make me smile (BLEUGH). Lately, however, all I have wanted to do is curl up in bed and sleep. I have tried to blog but I often can't even concentrate on how to spell the words I am trying to type. As a result I concluded to just taking a little break, I am a perfectionist and nothing feels worse to me than publishing a post that has been half-heartedly written.
I feel that having a little break from my laptop for the past week has allowed me to refresh my mind a little, and whilst my personal life is nowhere near better yet, I have decided that I am going to make this little corner of the internet which belongs to me my happy place. My normal blog posts are going to resume tomorrow and I have lots of ideas lined up that I am excited to share with you all :)
I apologise for this very morbid blog post and I promise it won't happen again haha; I definitely don't want everybody to feel sorry for me, I suppose I just needed a rant about how life is unfair and all that. I also really love blogging and the people who take a minute or two out of their day to read my posts and leave me a comment, so I didn't want you all to think I had just lost my blogging mojo all of a sudden; I don't think I ever will!
Now to reply to the abundance of comments I have neglected over the past few days! D:
I hope you're all doing well :)
Oh lovely I'm so sorry to hear you've been having such a difficult time of late. I really hope things pick up for you soon <3 I think that blogging is a great way to escape and unwind :)
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Love Holly oxo
http://beautifulsimplicity-holziepink.blogspot.co.uk/
Sorry to hear about your anxiety - looking forward to your upcoming posts Frances xx
ReplyDeleteI feel like that too. Actually, I have been in bed for the last week and, starting tomorrow, I'll be kicking that feeling! I understand I need break but sometimes there's no time for that. Just remember, everything will get better by fall, take some time to rest :)
ReplyDeleteI think the wonderful thing about the blogging community is that everyone understands the need to occasionally take a breather and step back when other things are happening no questions asked. There's no need to explain or apologise, just know that we love you and can't wait for your new posts :)
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I also suffer with anxiety.. so I understand you in that aspect <3 Hope you feel better soon
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It's your blog so don't apologise for writing how you feel! :) I hope you're okay and you feel happier soon <3 x
ReplyDeleteYou're writing for yourself Frances, remember that! I hope you're okay and everything picks up soon!x
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I think it's really brave for people to open up about personal issues such as suffering with anxiety on their blogs. I hope that just writing this post made you feel better. As you can see already you have lots of lovely, dedicated followers who will patiently wait for your great posts.
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Sarah
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Oh sweetie, I know exactly how you feel...a few weeks ago I needed a little break myself! Hope you'll feel better soon :) Cheer up lovely xx
ReplyDeleteHope your ok lovely. its ok to take a break sometimes as and we love reading your posts whenever you post them up. Just do it whens best for you. I know exactly how you feel I was like that a little while ago. I hope things pick up for you in every way xxx
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No reason to apologise, everyone needs a bit of a break sometimes :)
ReplyDeleteSophie, http://sophie-victoria.blogspot.co.uk xxx
Chin up lady! It's good to get it out in the open and have a little rant so fair play for doing that instead of brushing over it and pretending to be ok.. no shame in being honest! Can't wait to see some of your new posts :o)
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I think everyone feels like this sometimes really, but after all it's your blog so there really is no need to apologise (: Hope everything gets a little easier soon for you. xx
ReplyDeleteYou sound just like me. You're definitely not alone! Take your time :)
ReplyDeleteRebecca
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'A smooth sea never made a skilled sailor' a qoute to think about when life is tough! Hope things get easier for you soon
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I'm not going to reply to every comment on this post because I'll be saying the same thing over and over again, but thank you all for your lovely messages, they really help pick me up <3
ReplyDeleteFrances xx
((((( Cwtches ))))
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Aw no, sorry you've been feeling like that! Totally get what you're on about though, I get really bad anxiety and things and blogging IS therapeutic. It was really brave of you to write this post, I don't think you're alone in how you feel and you've probably made a lot of people reading this feel quite relieved that someone else feels the same way. xxx
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your feelings. Your honesty is welcomed and refreshing. I hope you're feeling better. Just remember things will be brighter. No worries about the post. I recently wrote one about complaining over at my blog...
ReplyDeleteHappy blogging!
Charismainbklyn.blogspot.com
i did a blog post on how i suffered with anxiety for 2 years, you should check it out and hopefully it will make you feel better :) your not alone xxxxx
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